Cookie Clara

Cookie Clara

Clara Vale believed every kitchen at Christmas needed three things: too much cinnamon, far too much butter, and at least one biscuit nobody was allowed to eat.

The first two needed no explaining. The third did.

Clara baked hundreds of biscuits in the kitchen of her little bakery: shortbread, stars, jam rings, and gingerbread houses, all wonky, because using a ruler on anything edible seemed just wrong.

And then there was Pip.

Pip was a gingerbread boy she made every year. He was always the same shape, with tiny blue buttons, a white-icing smile, and a red scarf piped round his neck. Nobody was allowed to eat him; he sat on the little shelf above the till until Twelfth Night, when he was carefully wrapped in paper and put on the fire.

She had done it every year since she was seventeen, and if anyone asked why, she said, "Tradition."

That wasn't strictly true. The real reason was that her grandmother had done the same, and before she died she'd made Clara promise to carry it on.

"One gingerbread boy," Grandma Vale had said. "Every Christmas. Make him last. Keep him safe. Burn him after."

Clara had asked why. Her grandmother glanced toward the pantry, then said something Clara never forgot.

"Because some things only stay hungry if you feed them properly."

At seventeen, Clara was used to adults saying ridiculous things, so she nodded, made the promise, and spent the next sixty-odd years assuming her grandmother had just been dramatic. Grandma Vale had certainly been capable of it. She once declared a neighbour's new curtains to be "the beginning of civilisation's decline." So Clara didn't give the warning much thought. She just baked Pip every Christmas, right up until December 2012, when Pip ran away.

She'd finished baking late the night before. The bakery smelled of ginger, nutmeg and brown sugar, and Pip lay on his tray among twenty-four other gingerbread people waiting to be iced. Clara left them to cool and went home.

The next morning there were twenty-four on the tray.

She counted again. Twenty-four. She checked the floor, under the cooling rack and in the bin, and found nothing.

"Arthur!"

Arthur was Clara's dog, a large, elderly Labrador with the moral standards of a burglar. He shuffled out of the back room looking guilty, but Arthur always looked guilty, mainly because he usually was.

"Did you eat him?"

Arthur wagged his tail.

"That's not a denial."

She checked his bed for crumbs and found none. She checked his mouth, which Arthur considered a gross invasion of privacy, and found nothing there either.

Clara sighed. "Fine. I'll make another."

She did, exactly the same, red scarf, blue buttons, white smile, and put Pip the Second on the shelf above the till. At half past ten he vanished too, and Clara stopped blaming Arthur.

At quarter past 11, Clara stood very still. A sound was coming from under the workbench. She crouched down, and two tiny black eyes looked back at her.

It was Pip, the original Pip, and he was standing up.

For a long moment neither of them moved. Then Pip ran.

Clara screamed, and Pip shot across the kitchen floor on tiny gingerbread legs. Clara grabbed a tea towel and went after him. He disappeared behind a flour sack; she moved the sack, and he wasn't there. She checked behind the sugar tin. Nothing. Arthur stuck his nose under the workbench and sneezed.

Then a small gingerbread hand appeared from behind the mixer. Clara gasped, and the hand froze.

"Come here," she said.

Pip leaned out and shook his head.

Clara blinked. Pip shook his head again.

"You can understand me?"

Pip nodded, and Clara sat down on the floor. It seemed the sensible thing to do. There are moments in life when standing up is simply too ambitious.

Pip came out slowly. He was exactly as she'd made him, except for being alive. He looked up at her, and she looked down at him.

"What have I done?" she said.

Pip pointed at the pantry.

Clara frowned. "What?"

He pointed again. The pantry door was shut. Clara got to her feet, and Pip grabbed the hem of her apron. His face had changed; the icing smile was gone, and he looked frightened.

The pantry door rattled, once.

Clara stopped moving. Arthur growled, and that worried her more than the door. Arthur had barked at postmen, squirrels, plastic bags, and, on one occasion, a courgette, but he almost never growled.

The door rattled again. Pip ducked behind Clara's shoe. She reached for the handle, and Pip slapped her ankle.

"Ow."

He pointed firmly away from the door. Clara stepped back. From the other side came a slow scratching, three long scrapes down the wood, and then nothing.

Clara locked the pantry.

She kept Pip close for the rest of the day, which was harder than it sounds, because once Pip stopped being frightened, he turned out to be a menace. He climbed the shelves, stole currants and sat in the sugar bowl, and at one point she caught him trying to drag a whole chocolate button across the worktop.

"You cannot possibly eat that."

Pip tried anyway.

By closing time, Clara had noticed something else. Pip wasn't the only one missing. Three more gingerbread people had gone from the cooling tray. She searched the whole bakery and found no sign of them, the pantry stayed locked.

That night she took Pip home and put him in a biscuit tin. Pip objected loudly.

"It's for your own safety," Clara told him.

Pip hammered on the lid. When she opened it, he glared up at her.

"All right," she said, and he spent the night on the bedside table instead.

At three in the morning Clara woke to find something standing on her pillow. It was Pip, pointing at the bedroom door. She listened and heard faint scratching from downstairs. Arthur started barking.

Clara pulled on her dressing gown and went down. The kitchen was empty, and the scratching had stopped. Then something small darted across the hall, and she switched on the light.

One of the missing gingerbread people stood under the table. No eyes, and its icing smile had been smudged across its head. Pip, on Clara's shoulder, made a tiny noise and covered his eyes with his hands. The figure stared straight at them even though it had no eyes, then fell apart.

Clara picked it up. It was cold and hard, just biscuit again. Pip reached out and touched its shoulder, and Clara, who had never imagined a gingerbread man could look sad, found out she'd been wrong.

The next morning she shut the bakery, which caused outrage, because Bellweather took Clara's Christmas biscuits very seriously indeed. She ignored everyone and drove to the old family house, where her grandmother's things were stored in the attic.

She was up there for hours, going through boxes of photographs, recipe books and Christmas decorations, until she found a small wooden chest. Folded on top was a red-and-white knitted scarf she remembered her grandmother wearing every winter, and Clara put it on without thinking. Underneath was Grandma Vale's notebook.

It was mostly recipes. Then she found the page headed GINGERBREAD BOY. The ingredients were almost exactly the same as her own, and at the bottom, in her grandmother's handwriting, was a warning.

One must remain whole until Twelfth Night. He watches the cupboard.

Below that was one more line.

Do not allow the Hollow Man to collect twelve.

Clara went cold. She did the sums. Pip the Second had gone, and three more from the tray, and one of those had come back empty. Which left three still out there somewhere, with Pip himself sitting on her knee.

She turned the page. There was a drawing of a tall, thin figure with long arms, fingers that ended in points, and an enormous hollow mouth. Around its feet stood twelve gingerbread figures. Underneath, her grandmother had written:

It does not eat biscuits. It eats the things we make them for.

Clara had no idea what that meant. Professor Barnabas Ravenwood did.

She rang him from the house. She'd heard of Ravenwood because sooner or later everyone in Derbyshire heard of Ravenwood, and he arrived two hours later. Pip took a dislike to him immediately.

"That seems unnecessary," said Ravenwood.

Pip threw a raisin at him.

Ravenwood picked up the notebook, and as he read, his expression changed.

"You've seen this before," said Clara.

"Not precisely."

"That means yes."

"It means I've come across similar entities."

"What does it want?"

Ravenwood looked at Pip. "Traditions."

"Traditions?"

"Not the objects. The meaning."

Some supernatural things, he explained, attached themselves to repeated human behaviour: songs, rituals, stories, family habits, the things people do because their parents did them, and their grandparents before that. Over time those habits gathered a kind of emotional weight.

"Think of it more as a residue," he said.

"Like grease?"

"Less appetising."

Pip stole another raisin.

The Hollow Man, Ravenwood went on, assuming Clara's grandmother had named it correctly, fed on traditions whose meaning had been forgotten. Not forgotten habits; forgotten reasons. Every time someone repeated an old custom without knowing why, the memory underneath was left exposed, and the gingerbread boy was there to protect it.

"For how long?" Clara asked.

Ravenwood turned a few pages. "Four generations at least."

Clara looked at Pip. Pip waved.

"So what happens if it gets twelve?"

Ravenwood hesitated, and Clara hated it when experts hesitated.

"What?"

"It may consume the tradition entirely."

"Meaning what?"

"Meaning nobody remembers it."

Clara relaxed a little. "That doesn't sound so terrible."

Ravenwood shook his head. "You misunderstand. Not just the tradition. Everything attached to it."

"All of my memories?"

"Yes."

She thought about what that would mean: every Christmas in that kitchen, children icing biscuits, people laughing over mixing bowls, the smell of ginger, Grandma Vale teaching her to pipe icing when she was seven. All of it gone in an instant, and not just for her but for everyone who'd ever been part of it.

And it occurred to Clara, standing in that cold attic, that she had been making Pip for sixty years without the faintest idea why. Exactly the sort of thing it fed on.

She stood up. "We're going back to the bakery."

Ravenwood gathered up his equipment. Pip climbed up Clara's coat and burrowed into her grandmother's scarf until only his head showed.

Clara looked down at him. "Comfortable?"

Pip burrowed deeper. She sighed. "Fine."

It had started to snow by the time they got back to the bakery; it was dark, and the pantry door, which Clara had definitely locked, was standing wide open. Ravenwood went in first, with Pip staying firmly buried in the scarf.

The pantry was empty apart from crumbs, hundreds of them, and the cooling tray on the bench was bare. Every last gingerbread figure had gone. The crumbs made a trail across the kitchen floor, out the back door, and into the snow, and Clara followed it all the way to the old church.

The missing gingerbread people were in the churchyard, set out in a ring among the graves. Clara counted them twice. There were eleven.

With Pip, that made twelve.

Something moved between the gravestones. It was tall and thin, far too thin, and when it stepped into the moonlight, Clara saw that it looked almost human. Almost. Its body was black and narrow, wrapped in something like an old coat, and where its face should have been, there was only a smooth hollow: no eyes, no nose, just an enormous empty mouth.

Pip trembled against her neck.

The Hollow Man raised one hand, and the eleven gingerbread figures stood up and began to walk towards it.

"Stop them!" Clara shouted.

Ravenwood switched on something complicated. It made a loud buzzing noise and did nothing else. The Hollow Man looked mildly unimpressed. Ravenwood hit the machine.

"Bear with me; it's experimental," he said.

Clara ran. She scooped the gingerbread figures up into her apron, and the Hollow Man turned and came for her. Then Pip leapt out of her scarf.

"Pip!"

He landed in the snow, and the Hollow Man stopped. Pip stood between it and Clara, tiny and ridiculous and very brave, and the Hollow Man reached down for him.

Clara stood looking at the small gingerbread man, and in a moment of realisation, she understood what her grandmother had written.

“He watches the cupboard. Not guards. Watches. Remembers.”

“One gingerbread boy, every Christmas. Keep him safe. Burn him after. Some things only stay hungry if you feed them properly.”

The gingerbread boy existed because somebody had to remember why he existed.

"We were never feeding it," she said quietly.

Ravenwood looked round. "What?"

"We've been feeding Pip."

The Hollow Man paused.

Every year the family had made the boy, kept him safe, and let him go after Christmas. Not because he was  dangerous, but because each year they were renewing the memory: a small thing done on purpose, remembered and protected. It only worked if you knew why you were doing it.

"My grandmother made Pip so we wouldn’t forget"

The Hollow Man stepped back.

Pip's eyes brightened.

"We made him so we'd remember Christmas together," Clara said. "So we'd remember the kitchen. So we'd remember the people who taught us."

With each sentence, the Hollow Man gave a little more ground, and Clara saw it clearly now. Forgotten meaning fed it. Remembered meaning starved it.

Behind her, Ravenwood started to laugh. "Of course!"

Clara glanced at him. "This really isn't the moment."

"Quite right. Sorry."

The Hollow Man was folding in on itself. Its long arms crumpled and its empty mouth stretched wide. Clara picked Pip up out of the snow and held him close.

"We remember," she said.

And the Hollow Man was gone. There was no explosion, no flash of light and no scream. It simply became less and less until nothing was left of it at all. In Clara's apron, the eleven gingerbread figures went still, just biscuit again.

The next morning the bakery was open again, the children came, and their parents, and all her old customers, and she told them what had happened. Well, most of it. She left out Ravenwood's malfunctioning machine, which he insisted was an irrelevant detail anyway.

Every time someone decorated a gingerbread man for Christmas in the bakery, the same question was asked: “Who are you making it for?”, Sometimes the answer was Mum or Dad, sometimes it was just themselves 

From then on, every child who decorated a gingerbread person at Clara's bakery was asked the same question: "Who are you making it for?" Sometimes the answer was Mum, or Dad, or Grandad, or a friend, and sometimes it was themselves. That part didn't matter. What mattered was that they knew.

Pip stayed with Clara, and he never went back to being plain biscuit. Ravenwood had several theories about why, and Clara ignored them all. Pip lived in the bakery, stole raisins, climbed the shelves, and every so often disappeared for hours and came back smelling strongly of cinnamon. Clara wore her grandmother's red-and-white scarf every Christmas after that, and eventually she knitted Pip a tiny one to match.

The years went by, and then Clara died. She was eighty-four, and Bellweather mourned her properly. The bakery closed, and for one Christmas nobody baked gingerbread there at all.

Then odd things started to happen. A child found a gingerbread figure sitting on the bakery windowsill. Another turned up on the church wall. And people started seeing a pale green ghost walking through Bellweather at night, wearing a red-and-white scarf and carrying a tiny gingerbread boy in her arms.

Ravenwood saw her once. He waved, and Clara waved back, and Pip threw a raisin at him. Ravenwood took this as confirmation.

Cookie Clara still turns up around Christmas, usually in kitchens and usually where an old family tradition is starting to slip away. Sometimes she only watches. Sometimes she moves a recipe book to where someone will find it. And sometimes people discover a gingerbread figure on the side that they don't remember baking.

Ravenwood believes Clara and Pip are still doing what the Vales did for generations, which is keeping traditions alive. Not every tradition deserves keeping, and some absolutely don't. But the good ones matter: the recipe in a grandmother's handwriting, the decorations made by children, the ridiculous songs, the same films every December, the biscuits nobody really likes but everyone makes anyway. They're the little threads that tie one Christmas to the next, and there may well be things in the dark that would very much like us to forget them.

So if you're baking gingerbread this Christmas, make one last little figure. Give it a scarf and a name, and remember who you're making it for.

Cookie Clara might be watching. And Pip almost certainly wants one of your raisins.